The other day, a cockroach was in my bathroom at 5 AM and I shouted and my mum sprayed to kill it on floor, next morning I asked my maid to clean it from there, but as I went there to show her, it wasn't there. There was not a dead insect in 6 hours. Ants there finished up a dead cockroach. It was jus an insect, I’m a human and I’ll have an end someday, I’m so worried about the end when I’ll be alone and then forgotten in few days, in next 10 years there’ll be no one who would remember that there was an AishaW who ever blogged on 3yesh’s. I’m a human the best creature in universe created by Almighty but I’m not worth more than a cockroach or am I?
This piece I composed in start of Sep 2010, in Ramadan and I never posted it. These days I was feeling same, something made me think that when I wasn’t there, there would be no one who’ll care about me, who will think that where’s she. You know the worst feeling is not left alone, the worst feeling is you are forgotten, I'm feeling some people forget me. And I’m sure I’m over think as always.
The guy there was telling me to check my 300 followers on networked blog, 250+ people on google. Not jus followers and readers, even loads of friends who want me to stay; excluding the bunch of jealous ones of course. And even if I forget about the followers being a meanie as always, there is Me who always feel so happy when she type on her blog, when she watch loads of people leaving there love for her, and reading and appreciating her. Though I’m almost done with personal blogging [as I have a big private crying blog] but whatever I’m writing here on 3yesha, means life for me, and I’ll type here till my last breath, wherever I’ll be.
I’m sorry for putting my personal frustration out on my blog again and I love you guys to help me to sort things out. My answer is maybe I would be forgotten in some years when I’m no more here, but I have to live the time till I have a chance to and maybe it would help me to live forever in the form of my blog pages.
|it leads me to over-thinking [Source: tumblr]|
There’s nothing secret this Sunday but I so love the awesome people there, I’m here for me and for you of course. Big muwahs and for you all, a small gift. hehe I stole my part already.
|Sprinkled Cake, Rainbow Treat [Source: tumblr]|
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